Depressing sanity
Trying to make good by my family
Handed the torch, it's my time to support

Cause It’s my last resort
The whole world in my palm, I'm struggling daily
Life in this booth will be the death of me

It’s fucking killing me

Now the time has finally come
Got a message to spread better listen son
The story has nowhere to start
Something’s tearing me apart
Facing this every fucking day
My morals being tested a whole new way
But I'm still in the game
Now, I'm seeing certain things change
Such things raise my fucking concern
That the number one spot goes to those who deserve
Silver spoon in your mouth
We're just here to serve
Status isn't something you fucking earned
It's playing with my god damn nerves

Starting out I wouldn't call it a dream
Or something that would alter my self esteem
A master plan to find a hidden treasure
Consuming my time, a constant pleasure
Forcing my stride to a whole new measure

[Now] I'm facing facts
Suffering from internal collapse
Facing a crossroad inside of me

[Now] I'm facing facts
struggling with internal collapse
searching for ways to be at peace

Struggling to keep my head on straight
I muscled it out, I've shouldered the weight
We blindly seek a common goal we hold
But the path required is simply long and cold
Feeling the divide inside of my head
Where one side wants the other one dead
So it may appear that I've been misread
Cause despite the life I've fucking lead
I no longer control what lies ahead

Your losing it all now roulette your last chance
[BANG BANG]
Drew a couple blanks
[BANG BANG]
Lucked out again

[Now] I'm facing facts
Suffering from internal collapse
Facing a crossroad inside of me

[Now] I'm facing facts
Struggling with internal collapse
Searching for ways to be at peace

Snapping back, I checked out for a minute
Used and abused, exceeded my limit

Life flashing before my face
Burned my last bridge there's no saving grace

I find myself at this pivotal moment
Staring face to face with my greatest opponent
Cog in the industry or a spine in my back?
Or walk that line the ultimate balancing act
Now I see I'll bring my own demise
Upon examination I soon realize
Unfortunately there's no compromise
No chance to revise severing all ties
I find myself in a familiar place
Taking this moment to plead my case
For I'm simply a pawn in a common game
Waging war on myself [it'll never be the same]

[It’ll never be the same]

So here I am at my final stand
I can honestly say this wasn't fucking planned
[Or staged] I can't recap
I've fallen into my own fucking trap